- I stop wearing my seatbelt (this is one of my first signs)
- I begin taking only my prescription medications, and eliminate my vitamins.
- I start throwing my clothes on the floor when undressing.
- My clean clothes and dirty clothes are now mixed up together on the bedroom floor
- I stop doing my laundry
- I do a load of laundry and leave it in the washer. . . . for days. . .rewash. . . leave it in washer. . . . etc.
- I don't want to talk on the phone.
- I don't return phone calls.
- I let my voice mail get full and I don't clear it.
- I begin sleeping in until noon
- I take naps! Major problem! I will take a 3 to 4 hour nap in the middle of my business day - getting virtually nothing done. A few days in a row of this and I am way behind in my work.
- I don't wear my rubber bands for my braces
- I miss doctors appointments
- I avoid making doctors appointments
- My house is messy and I don't have the desire or energy to do anything about it.
- I've run out of food and I don't go grocery shopping.
- I'm off my eating plan - usually because I've run out of the foods I need.
- I start skipping meals
- I feel unorganized, less than, or depressed.
- I spend money without paying attention to my finances.
- I pay my bills late
- I harm my credit rating by waiting over 30 days to pay a bill.
- I don't open my mail and ignore that I have any bills at all.
- It appears as though I am trying to gain weight, or sabotage the weight loss I have experienced to date.
- I binge eat on primarily sugar.
- I resist exercising.
Sunday, July 22, 2007
Signs That I'm Self Destructing
I have some obvious (in hindsight) signs that I'm on the path to my self destruction. These signs begin simple enough, but then they are compounded as I continue to chip away at the positive behaviors I am trying to incorporate into my daily lifestyle. . . . .